Hello everyone. How’s every Torontonian handling this ridiculous amount of winter snow. I can never get used to it for sure. Being very very not hopeful and unhappy this winter, (with breakups, quitting a job, being broke) and everything, it has been challenging for me. I know I am not the only one like this. Please read my post and I hope you can relate to me somewhat at least in healthy way?! I hope you find your part in my writing, (better). Thank you and let’s get started on my journal.
Jan 2rd
Pho time. hhh I think I tend to have more pho when I have heartache issue. At this point, I almost had a refusal to chat from my crush. OMG…..right? I hate it when I see it coming but can’t help myself. I suck at getting along. But, I will keep trying.
Jan 3rd
OMG… Why did I get so big… I am not even lying. Selfie check is so depressing nowadays. Who’s gonna ever teach how to be loving oneself, not food.
Jan 4th
I came to purple bubble. I think I spend most of my days in a “ghost town” nowadays. The fried rice with egg and shrimp is so good despite the location accessibility. That’s a reminder of Moon Ga Young’s book…. If you ever know what I am talking about. I saw her interview recently. I never read the book. lol
Jan 5th
A box of mango was given to us~! I mean that’s really kind of our tenant. (like rare good part of this month) I made 3 mango meals. I made marinated chicken, mango cheesecake and mango salsa shrimp taco. I mean did mango always taste this good? Am I the only one who didn’t know this before? I am into mango from now on.
Jan 6th
Matcha drink before work is my chill time. I always go here because it is so convenient in every way. I love barista skill.
Jan 7th
Five guys, I know guys: it’s fattening. But, the peanut butter shake is so …. irresistible. Burger is not my favorite style but that is not the main point here. Their store-made fries are also awesome.
Jan 8th
Truthfully speaking, I think I reached my maximum weight of life. Wow, in a negative way. I mean being fat is not so much bothering me nowadays but….. I feel so heavy and unmotivated that I feel like slime zomebie.
Jan 13th & 14th
If you do not like traditional omelet or always have salmon with pasta then, you need to try this recipe. They are super simple and very not disappointing. I hope you can tell by the thumbnail.
On the very next day, I made katsu curry udon and some mysterious vietish(?) riche noodle thingi. I would recommend first two if you only aim to cook for a day. But, I liked it.
Jan 17
That morning subway is not working while I was heading to work. I mean it is not very new thing but…. still frustrated. I took a picture and sent it to my boss but should’ve just showed him. I feel bad.
I got some boong-eo bbang and shared with my coworker. No red bean. Shu one. I loved it better.
Jan 21
Shakeshak is now everywhere in Canada. Have you tried their shake? I tried the cookie and cream shake after vlog of someone. It was actually not too tooo sweet and good.
Jan 23
Ok. It’s been so so long I got a free meal from my workplace. Nobody miss a day nowadays, which is better but this was a good surpise.
Jan 25
That plant that I got from my co-worker… I mean they got big. My mom got talent to grow pots. On the same day, I finally got dumped by my crush. He stop responding to my text. soso sad. What’s wrong with me.
Jan 26
I mean… frying is addictive. It is actually hard to stop.. so I ate sweet potato (goguma/trust me it’s very different) fries and onion fries after frying it myself on a pan. No video since I was not in a mood.
Jan 29
I felt a rush to get rid of what’s in my closet. Maybe that’s my post-melancholy syndrome. Anyways, it didn’t seem like a bad idea. But, yes it was a bad idea. I actually almost got stolen 2000 bucks to someone who tried to get information through a link. I mean, why am I so careless at that point. But, bright side of this is that I didn’t actually lose my money, thanks to my diligent and mindful bank people who checked before sending a e-transfer. I thought of moving a bank but never mind that anymore.
Feb 3rd
Ok, this is actually embarrassing point of my life. OMG. it gives me “cringes” just looking back at this. I tried to report someone and that someone is my very last crush. Being emotional is actually bad people. Thanks to his generosity. Nothing legal like legal responsibility was required. Thank God he was busy. I hate it that I have nothing to focus on other than him. I need a hobby like really, like quickly.
Feb 4th
Actually this photo is taken with no thought. Why am I faking a smile here. (sigh)
Feb 10th
A cup of hot matcha. You see how seriously depressed I was. My mind wondered and ordered my unusual hot drink. No mind what so ever.
Feb 12th
Ok, I interviewed a work place and they gave me tests to complete to qualify for that position. I still haven’t heard back from them though. Very tough day.
Feb 13th
Aespa … finally something outside of house. I mean they were like barbie dolls. Good seat gave a chance to zoom them in and I could see actually faces. They performed with pre-recorded music with their real voice over it and no discomfort what so ever. They were perfect. There’s no doubt about their beauty too. If you got eyes you’ll know.
Feb 20th
I mean after bagging and bagging him to come back. He came back after a week. I mean I am so much emotional work. I feel sorry. That’s me stop crying and forcing a smile. Can you believe I lost 9 kg after that breakup thingi? I did.
Feb 21
Korean chinese food day. One opend near my worplace and had a fried rice during my work lunch time.
Feb 22
I said I lost weight. I was kind of scared so had a large meal lol.
Feb 28
We had a nice lunch together ~!
My coworker bought a drink for us!!!
Summary
I can guess the number of people reading this thinking I need some help but… trust me. I am getting one. It sounds depressing to myself. I am the most annoyed one by this fact. Cold weather makes me worse. But, there is no betrayal by wanting something bad and putting effort to it. I believe in that. Don’t ever hurt yourself emotionally. Don’t go even near it. I love you all. I will continue to write, either in tears or laughter.
Thank you for reading and surviving.